Domo. :D

走出一段感情需要多少勇气？

要让自己确定，不能再这样下去。

提出来，承担责任。

承受纠缠。

终于让自己面对后，

要让自己习惯一个人的生活。

要面对一个人自己，不像以前有人陪的生活。

然后就要让回忆慢慢淡化。

不要再想，

不要再哭，在伤心流泪，

在偷偷得躲在一旁观望。

直到有一天，

你突然发现很久没有想起他，

你应该就有够勇气走出这段感情。

朋友，

够了，

再多的泪水，

再多的痛苦，

都会过去的。

不要再这样下去。

至少我现在觉得

我已经在康复当中，

你也可以的。

我知道现在不是
时候不专心的时候。
可是今天总有点无奈感。
消之不去的无奈感。
最近这种感觉一直浮现。。。

可能真的是开始得太迟。
可能是开始觉得越读越苯。
可能是开始觉得真的撑不过去了

"Bye, Bye, Bye" - N SYNC

(Hey, Hey)
Bye, Bye, Bye
Bye, Bye...
Bye, Bye...
Oh, Oh..

I'm doin' this tonight,
You're probably gonna start a fight.
I know this can't be right.
Hey baby come on,
I loved you endlessly,
When you weren't there for me.
So now it's time to leave and make it alone
I know that I can't take no more
It ain't no lie
I wanna see you out that door
Baby, bye, bye, bye...

Bye Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two
You may hate me but it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't really wanna make it tough,
I just wanna tell you that I had enough.
It might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye

(Oh, Oh)
Just hit me with the truth,
Now, girl you're more than welcome to.
So give me one good reason,
Baby come on
I live for you and me,
And now I really come to see,
That life would be much better once you're gone.

I know that I can't take no more
It ain't no lie,
I wanna see you out that door
Baby, bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two
You may hate me but it ain't no lie,
Baby Bye, bye, bye...
Bye Bye
Don't really wanna make it tough,
I just wanna tell you that I had enough (ooh ooh)
It might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Baby, bye, bye, bye

I'm giving up I know for sure
I don't wanna be the reason for your love no more
Bye Bye
I'm checkin' out
I'm signin' off
Don't wanna be the loser and I've had enough

Don't wanna be your fool
In this game for two
So I'm leavin' you behind
Bye, bye, bye...

I don't wanna make it tough (wanna make it tough)
But I had enough
And it ain't no lie (Bye, bye baby...)
Bye, Bye
Don't wanna be a fool for you
Just another player in your game for two (I don't wanna be your fool)
But it ain't no lie
Baby bye, bye, bye...

Don't really wanna make it tough (don't really wanna make it tough),
I just wanna tell you that I had enough (that I had enough).
Might sound crazy,
But it ain't no lie,
Bye, bye, bye

goodbye to you.
goodbye to my grades.
i hope.
its not goodbye to my dear jacket.

越来越读不进去。

也总觉得我读过的那些东西，

都没有进去大脑的感觉。。。

不够时间了。

加油加油！

FOURIER ROCKS!

大学在慢慢改变我读书的习惯。

不太喜欢自己现在的读书方式。

可是这也是没有办法的。

总觉得自己越做越苯。

又总在问东问西。

妨碍别人。。。

頑張って　頑張って　頑張って！

10 days to death date.

sigh.

yes i should have mugged harder.

come to realise i spent too much

time emoing this time round.

shall try and cure that.

今天心情有点怪。

可能是下了一整天的雨，

心情有点郁闷。

不至于不开心，

也不至于高兴。

就有种无可奈何的心情。

最近发生了不少的事。

我领悟到了不少。

其中就是，

我不够坚强。

碰到困难总想

逃之夭夭。

不想去面对。

也整天在怨天尤人。

我。

需要改进的地方多着呢。

不要再让无关紧要

的人和物，

影响我的心情。

跟不能让他

妨碍我读书。。。

不要再胡思乱想。

Yui - Laugh away

見上げたらヒゴーキ雲明日へと消えた
僕はそれでもずっと自転車を漕ぎ続けた

上り坂駆け上がるあの空の向こう
いつか追い越せるようなそんな気がしているから

逸れそうな Get away Get away
情熱を Get away Get away
逃さないように手を伸ばして。。。

ちっぽけな事に悩んじゃって
とにかく君に会いたくなった yeah

生まれたての春の匂いに
咲き誇るサクラの花びら
いつだって負けないようにねぇ

そう笑ってそっと笑って Laugh away
そう笑っていつも笑って

丘の上息を切らし町を見下ろした
多分君の家の屋根くらいは見えるはず

窓のそっと海がすぐだよなんて話してた
だからあの場所あたり？同じ「今」感じている

溢れそうな Get away Get away
情熱を Get away Get away
こぼさないように手を伸ばして

ちっぽけな事に悩んじゃって
とにかく君に会いたくなった

目の前に広がる景色を
忘れては行けない気がした
いつだって負けないように

Never mind. Never mind. 落ち込んだら
yeah yeah ここに来て風に吹かれたい

小さな笑顔が見たいから
僕だって強くなれるのさ yeah

生まれたての春の臭い
咲き誇るサクラの花びら
いつだって負けないようにねぇ

そう笑っていつも笑って

Translation

As I looked up, the streak of clouds (left behind in the trail of planes) disappeared to tomorrow
Even then, I continued to paddle on my bicycle

Yeah, climbing up the upslope, to the sky on the other side
Because I felt I could overcome that some day

As if losing my way, get away get away
Don't lose your passion/ ambition (Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms

Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly I felt like seeing you

The smell of fresh spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it.

Yes laugh, laugh away
Yes laugh, keep laughing

On top of the hill, I took a deep breath and looked down
I probably could only see the roof of your house

And you said the sea is just outside the windows
At that place, I could feel the same presence

The overflowing (Get away Get away)
Don't spill your (overflowing) passion (Get away Get away)
Stretch out your arms

Worrying about the trivial things
Suddenly, I felt like seeing you

The scenery right in front of my eyes
I felt I mustn't forget it.
I will never lose to it.

When I feel depressed and down, yeah yeah
I want to come here, and be blown by the wind

I want to see your little smile
I, too, can become stronger

The smell of the fresh Spring
The petals of the blossoming sakura
I will never lose to it

Yes, laugh. Keep laughing away.

i didnt know its so difficult,

to erase off the past.

to erase off a person's presence,

from your heart.

it seems.

no matter how i try,

i cant erase you off.

its like im using eraser

on pen markings.

i shall try the correction

fluid next.

today is fricking karma.

really fricking karma.

morning i left the house

already a series of weird and karma

things happening.

so its like my day was probably meant

to be like that.

OH WELL.

then when i reached sch,

my laptop refused to turn on.

gave me a big fright.

thought i was really going to die.

then finally i got it on,

then we had to change place.

cause the @#$%$#@ tutor

didnt have the courtesy to inform

us, that there was a class going on.

T.T

then the most karma thing ever.

the stupid hand in thing.

SIGH.

damn sian.

and i actually did like half of qn2 alr.

oh well.

is i stupid la.

never go and plan time properly.

never go and hand in like they said

one hour once.

its my fault i know.

just feels zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

came back home and slept.

fell better.

but then. still a bit zzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

surprisingly calm for once.

the last time something similar

happened i really cried like hell.

but now like no feeling.

maybe the consecutive hurt i feel

for so long numbed everything.

till i dont really register properly

what is really going on with my life.

or maybe i will only register when my

results come back.

SIGH.

shall not brood on it anymore.

really no mood to mug today.

oh well.

tmr i shall mug.

GAMBATTE!(:

不想再想你了。

累了，痛了，麻了。

可是，

忘记一个人，

谈何容易呢？

i understood integration today! :3

YAYYYYYYYYYY!

JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOUUUUUUU.

MUG MUG MUG. :3

i need to be infected by a happy virus. :3

听到到这首歌。

很适合我现在的感觉。

到一种难以置信的地步。

陶喆 - 你的歌

喜欢你冷淡的安静
笑容又胜过了太阳
我只能投降
怀疑自己的冲动
怕机会一瞬间错过
决定不再想
你说我们是两个世界的人但是否可能
我相信只要我爱你什麽都可以
一切都可以
我爱你爱你没道理
没道理爱你爱你就可以
就是痴心的痴心的沉溺
沈你在爱你就让我沉溺
yeah...
无法理解你不说话
我进不到你心里面
像有一道墙
怀疑当初的冲动
是不是开始就是错
许多事没想
你说我们是两个世界的人已
没有可能 woo...
我以为只要我爱你
什麽都可以
一切都可以
我爱你爱你没道理
没道理爱你爱你就可以
就是痴心的痴心的沉溺
沈你在爱你就让我沉溺
或许不爱你也不需要你
我无法继续继续骗我自己
必须要放弃
要放弃了你
别在我心底
希望他比我
爱你爱你....
还是你的歌...

its 2am in the morn and im going to sleep

soon, after fighting with my disgusting

maths tutorial and the mock pe for 2 hrs.

i concede defeat.

i shall go sleep.

i know now is not the time to be blogging.

but i got a tat pek chek.

so need to 发泄 a bit.

if not tmr i might still be in a rawr mood.

got quite frustrated doing maths today.

i very nearly strangled my maths tutorial.

maybe its just the wrong day to attempt to

do some decent work.

i should have kept it light and not so much

i guess, since its been a long day and whats

more with jap.

wrong planning i guess. sigh.

and i felt so stupid doing tut.

T.T

like always.

time like this.

i curse my decision for choosing

com engine.

but im determined to plough on.

at the very least,

i made the decision myself.

so my path is mine to take.

JYJY! :3

心理的痛怎么样

都无法挥之而去。

可是日子还是要过。

书还是要读。

太阳也继续旋转着。

让时间弥补一切。